I was going to update, but I don't have anything I want to say in here. I got a mac book pro for school. it's the best, and I'm constantly amazed by it's radness. My life tends to fall apart and reconstruct too often for my liking, and I'm beginning to think it's ME that happens to be the problem. It's also becoming harder and harder to "grin and bare it" when dealing with people in public places. I hafta work way harder now just to not jam my thumbs into their eyesockets for being on their cellphones. I hate those things. used to have one, almost got one again, definately don't want one...

Might get us a land line for the apartment tho, as the cell phone sucks ass, and for $30 a month or so I could just get us a phone for here at the apartment...

I also like cheese. Yesterday was our ^EDIT:3rd anniversary, and we had mucho cheese. buffet was extra good too. yay...

I'm going to eat food now, eat a dick retards...

Current Mood: whatevah!

and still half credit. out of 100 points, that got a 50. why do people get worked up over grades?

I hate today...

3 hours of sleep...

irritating OCD cat constantly cleaning itself at full volume feet away from me while trying to sleep (how do you LOUDLY lick yourself anyway?). Funds are dragging and taking their good old time, making the purchase of my required laptop postpone well into the 5th week of the semester. Had Kent State's Bursar's office actually had their shit together I would have had it allready. I JUST got my last 2 books in the mail the other day. Math isn't a strong point for me, and I'm certain I'll fail it this semester. AND THAT'S JUST SCHOOL RELATED ISSUES!!!

Work's been horrid. I've not made any commission the past week and a half. My paychecks are gonna be tiny right around the time I'll need some money, go figure. I'm not even going to comment on my problems at home. I've quit smoking a little bit ago, this time for really real as it nearly killed me this time. I've been coughing up black chunks for about a week now, so you can only imagine the throat and chest irritation that follows. Wonderful if you spend 5 hours a day talking on the phone non-stop at your job. It definately eases the pain of the arctic blast that engulfs me anytime I get out of bed. I'm getting a toothache again, I can only imagine how that's gonna end up (imagine me in the bathroom with pliers and a bottle of jack). There's a new kidney stone floating around that'll eventually pop out and mutilate my useless groin meats, so that's something to look forward to. Certain friends are stressing me out, while others are irritating me to death (some are cool still). Oh yeah, and pointing out other people's contradictions has lost it's fun. Easily the most depressing thing of all...

today kym's saying how she thinks she's fat (as girls will indefinately do no matter what you tell them, or what size they are) in the same breath she asks me if I want anything from McDonalds while she's getting breakfast. I chuckled and she realized the humor in it, but that sort of thing happens so often lately (not always with her) that pointint it out is too much effort. I used to LIVE for shit like that, now it's just another of the many things that will irritate me to the grave...

well, off to class (unless they cancel again and notify us via email 10 min before class is scheduled again.)

UPDATE: The bus passed me up. I was maybe 5 feet away from the same stop I always get picked up at. same time too. I guess if you aren't willing to stand in the cold 10 min earlier than you need to to compensate for their lack of ability to stick to a goddam schedule. FUCK THIS! I'm going back to bed. I'll wake up before it's time to go to work or something. I can't fucking handle this. I'm literally englfed with rage right now. EVERYTHING dies if anything else goes wrong today...

Current Mood: aggravated

so I recently obtained a real banjo, and have been teaching myself to play. I named her Molly Ringwald, and she evolved into Molli Ringworm. This was definately a good idea...



Here's a video of me playin' it...

Current Mood: Rad
Current Music: Cuddly Blood Vomit

truth be told, this actually happened here on earth one day while nobody else payed attention...

you missed it...

but I fixed it, and now you're able to see it...

update out of obligation. nothing of importance to say. nothing any of you need to be included in. deadbeat dads with ungodly child support bills make me smile. desperate comment posting douchebags in search of some sort of human interaction makes me do yuck face. general disghust with every living creature in existance, but pleasantly shocked when my time released apathy kicks in (not even in pill form!)...

other people having individual priorities and perspectives adds to the irritation. granted, I'm no center of the universe, but it'd be much better if I were. If given absolute control over everything, there'd be no more porn seeking, no more standardsm a LOT less animals (by related circumstances, much more meat to eat.) no vegetarians, or people who think killing is wrong. I'd erase the "good" and "evil" duality, and introduce such a complex concept of both existing in the same place at the same time because neither truly exist. those who cannot follow will be made into meat for the masses...

eagerly awaiting the arrival of a motor vehicle, so as to obtain a stronger income and can begin constructing my space. not a shitty blogging site for 14 year olds to set themselves up for mall rape, and actual physical space where I can go to be alone with my machines and my mind where I can create and not worry about irritating my loved ones. alone, secluded, safe... I long for the security of wrapping myself up on my own world and giving this social interction bullshit a rest. it's all just smiling and pretending other people's little quirks don't irritate you anyway. if healtthy relationships are based on honesty, whouldn't the healthiest relationships all start with "you're awkward and uncomfortable, let's make out."

maybe my world perspective's a little off, but from where I sit it's right on. Since I don't subscribe to the preconcieved sets of standards most people choose to surrender themselves to, I don't really care if it's "sick" or "weird" or whatever other adjectives that are commonly replaced by "evil".

too much nothing in my head. echo and reverb sloshing around until it all becomes one constant hum of distorted silence. isn't that what home feels like to everybody?

Lightwave 3D animator is amazing. I can't wait to start churning out shit using this program...

but then this happened...



we eventually found santa, and robots were distributed to all (most). even a device to make you more human again!

my robot woz pink...

So instead of getting our families any gifts this year for axe-mess (cuz we're broke bastidz) we're making cookies. putting them on axe-mess plates, and other such signs of becoming elderly...

but tonight I woz supposed to make some no-bake peanutbutter bar bullshit. mix and fridge that's it. My cooking skillz were insulted. then I looked at the other one, and it scared me what with the usage of words like infection...

so I invented 2 cookie recipes on the fly. peanutbutter based. one's just a home-made peanutbutter cookie. chips, ect. hoo...

the other is graham kraka krunch topped with a baked peanutbutter cookie mass...

it's really it's own universe, and all should admire the splendor that is my pile of cookie ingredients slow baking in the oven. if it's any help, it smells delicious...

you were fooled into seeking more information. you have been fooled by the allmighty radmaster and his haphazardly dastardly bastardness that you will only hear tales about...

sukka

Current Mood: Wyl-Supreme
Current Music: shut your head up